Tonya

New year, new phase, new life! At para simulan ang bagong taon, dapat magpalit din ako ng pangalan.

"Tonya!"

Napatigil ako sa paglalakad nang marinig ko ang pangalan ko. Anak ng butanding. Sino na naman kayang hampaslupa ang tumatawag sakin sa ganung pangalan? Ang aga-aga nambubuwisit. Mukhang sa boses si Tet yun, so malamang anak nga ng butanding. Mabuti pa'y hindi ko na lang papansinin at itutuloy ko na lang ang paglalakad.

Rejection

From thehappinessparadigm.com

"I no longer wish to speak with you."

It was all that was needed to be said to put me back in my place. I was thinking, hoping actually, that she still wants to be together. That she wants to give us a second chance. That she still longs for me the way I still long for her. I guess I was too far from the truth.

Thinking of being rejected is one thing, being actually rejected is another. It's something that, no matter how long you psych yourself for, will never be prepared. Especially if it's something you really, really want. You think that you've prepared yourself by hoping for the best and expecting the worst, but when you're in that situation, you forget about expecting the worst and just hope for the best.

I guess I had it coming. After all, I was the first one to let go. When I said I want out, I was being impulsive, into that moment. I shouldn't be disappointed that I had been rejected. And yet, it feels like someone just punched a big, gigantic hole in my chest.

Tangent

From http://spacecollective.org/

It pains to live like this - you, hovering like a ghost, like a memory that never goes away. It was easy for you to cut me off, so maybe I should also do the same. We were once together, but now where nothing but complete strangers.

You think I don't notice how cold you've become? How ironic that you say we can stay friends but as usual I'm the only one making any efforts. How do you make it seem that nothing never really happened between us, that for a time, I mattered? Or maybe me being of some importance to you is nothing but a twisted delusion of mine.

Awkward

I was thinking of including this in the "Reunion" story, but when I finished it was too short for a chapter. Also I can't figure out where to put it. So I just put it off as a separate story. Enjoy

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From http://aintnogod.com/

Being in the same room with him felt awkward.

I won't ever get how he can be calm and collected. We didn't particularly part in good terms, so how he can be so casual that I was in the same room as him will be a puzzle to me. It feels like there's a big elephant in the room that he dares not acknowledge - me.

How can I fall under his radar? It's like he cannot see me, until one person points it. And then, I disappear as quickly as he acknowledges my presence. It's like magic. Or selective sight. I dunno.

I tried to stay away from his personal space as much as I can. I'm not as good as him when it comes to compartmentalizing my life. He can fully separate his work life with his personal - and even his romantic life. I never had the capability of doing that. I always felt that one part interacts with the other, and they can never be separated.

To that someone that I used to know

From https://s-media-cache-ak0.pinimg.com

It has been a few months since we parted. Since I told myself that I deserve better than this. Since I realized that I was still singing the same old songs amidst multiple pleas for something else. Since I decided to call it quits.

You told me time and time again how much feelings you had for me, but for some reason it doesn't connect with what you do. You've told me how important I was, yet I felt I was always being brushed under the rug. You said that I was of value, but you never took the time to know me. It looked like you were just going along with the pretense that we were happy with what we had, never even taking the time to assess if it was indeed the case. At times, I felt like I was the only one in love. And like the song says, I can't make you love me if you don't.

And so I decided to end it. While telling you this, deep down I was hoping that you would say something to make me change my mind. Say something, and tell me that my decision is wrong. Say something, tell me we can work this out. Say something, tell me you love me.

Reunion - Chapter 6: Breakfast

Chapter six... Wrote 3 new chapters in a span of 2 weeks (or less!) And I have a few ideas on what to write for the next few chapters.

Looks like I won't be finishing this in 10 short chapters as I originally hoped. Let's just hope that I would be able to in less than 15 (or 20).

Anyway, if ever you see any wrong grammar or spelling just let me know. I wrote this on a fly without any proof reading or what have you. Trying to proof read this thing by myself is a bit biased, IMHO.

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Chapter 6 - Breakfast

The sun was already high in the sky when I woke up. I glanced at the clock beside my table - it's already 1PM. I must've been really tired. First I got caught up in a dreamless daze in the office, and now I woke up late. I wasn't even able to change to my pajamas after I got home. Good thing it was a Saturday, I can wake up pretty late if I wanted to.

Reunion - Chapter 5: The walk

Continuing from where we left off from Chapter 4, but this time from James' perspective.

Which made me wonder. If there aren't any "intro" into any of the chapters, would people be able to identify from whose perspective I'm writing for?

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Chapter 5 - The Walk

"Are you sure you want to walk?" I asked after we got out of the office building. "You were pretty dazed back in the office."

"Yeah, it's the least I can do as an exercise." she replied. "Plus it's not really that far, I live 2 stations away."

"You're really sure?" I insisted. "We can take a cab instead you know."

Reunion - Chapter 4: Dazed

After more than a month (or two?) Chapter 4, finally! hihihi...

I already have an idea for the next Chapter (and possibly the next), but I don't have the time to write it yet. I'm thinking there would probably be a few more chapters after that, an event and a confrontation. How it'll work out I'm not yet sure, so I won't get ahead of myself.

Comment are welcome, as always (I feel like I sound like a broken record already).

Enjoy!

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Chapter 4: Dazed

"Jessie?"

I was surprised when I suddenly heard James speak. I must've been so deep in thought that I didn't even notice that he was standing right next to me. It was like a repeat of the first day.

"Oh sorry, I was just thinking of something. How long have you been there?"

Reunion - Chapter 3: Surprise

This is the third chapter of the story I was writing. It might not be as fluid as the first two though. Sorry about that.

Anyway this is like a recap of the events that happened in Chapter 1 and 2, but from the perspective of the other person, James.

As usual, comments are always welcome. This is a very rough draft, so it might change a bit (or drastically), depending on the feedback.

Anyway, enjoy. :)

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Chapter 3 - Surprise

Monday - it's just like any other day. I wake up, do my morning routine, prepare for work and head off. Today's a bit different though - everyone was abuzz that a new employee will be coming in today. I didn't really get much detail, except that she had previously worked at one of the best firms in the industry, and that she's really good. Little did I know that I would be in for a really big surprise.

Reunion - Chapter 2: Mark

Chapter 2 of my previous post

I still don't have a clear idea on what happens next after this, so it might take a while before the story gets a follow-up. Anyway I hope you like it. :)

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Chapter 2 – Mark

It was a bit late when I got off from work – for a first day it was pretty hectic. I had the whole morning for HR and company orientations and the latter part of the day was spent trying to familiarize myself with the job. It was pretty busy, but it was ok for the most part. Well, maybe except for James passing by every fifteen minutes or so trying to see if I was okay or if I need help. It’s not like I don’t have the capacity to do my own work – I wouldn’t have been hired if I the company thinks I’m good for nothing..

Reunion - Chapter 1: Encounter

Part 1 of (hopefully) a running story. 

This is purely fictional. Any similarities to actual persons or events are purely coincidental.

On another note, I realized that 2 of the main characters - Jessie and James - kinda form Team Rocket from Pokemon. That was never planned. :P

Enjoy.

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Chapter 1 - Encounter

"Jessie?"

I was stopped on my tracks at the mention of my name. It’s been years since somebody called me that, and it was only by one person. After all those years, I didn’t think that I would actually meet him again, much more at work. Apparently, fate has another thing in mind.

Time Loop

Something I wrote yesterday. It's sort of a rough draft. I wrote something similar a couple of years back but it got lost so I decided to write something similar. However while I was writing it the plot changed a bit, and this is the result. The title isn't official, just some random idea I had at the moment. Comments/suggestions are very much appreciated. :)

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Time Loop

Naglalakad si Andoy palayo ng kanilang barung-barong na bahay. Hawak hawak nya ang kanyang pisngi upang itago ang marka ng kamay ng nanay nya. Nagkaroon kase sila ng pagtatalo at nauwi ito sa isang malakas na sampal sa kanyang pisngi.

Kung sya ang tatanungin wala naman talaga syang ginawang masama. Pinagtanggol lang naman nya ang sarili nya mula sa mga taong nangbubully sa kanya sa school. Madalas kase syang pagtripan ng mga kaklase nyang mayayaman, kesyo daw hindi daw sya nababagay sa kanilang eskuwelahan. Siguro nga kung estado ng buhay ang paguusapan, hindi talaga sya nababagay roon. Hindi naman kase sila mayaman, at kaya lang sya nakapasok sa eskuwelahang yon ay dahil isa syang scholar. Kinakailangan pa nyang magtrabaho para lang may pambaon sa araw araw, pero pagkatapos malaman ng boss nya na napaaway sya sa eskwelahan ay sinesante sya nito.