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"Sometimes I feel like, 'Am I nothing but a prize trophy to you?'"

It was all that she needed to say to break down my wall, my defenses. I couldn’t think of anything else to say to counter her argument. No, I don’t think of her that way, but the fact the she feels that way pierces a deep hole in my gut. Thinking of her that way is the last thing I would do, but thinking about it and making her feel about it are two different matters.

I'm stupid, I'm delusional

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I’m stupid.

To think that I would do something like this, something that is beyond my comfort zone. I’ve been so lonely, so unhappy, and when you held me, all my defenses crumbled down.

We were lying on the bed, our arms intertwined with each other. I could think of so many different things that had the same theme – two people that have been bonded into one.

I have dreamt of this a couple of times before – us lying in bed, your head resting on my arm, my hands caressing the contours of your body. It’s nothing sexual, but I could feel the intimacy on a whole new level – the swirl of emotions, the storm of feelings. It’s like having all your senses heightened to a point that a single touch sends jolts of electricity through your body. It’s so exhilarating, so pleasurable – yet at the same time, painful.

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Based on the date below I wrote this two years ago, on new years eve. Posting it now for everyone to read. Enjoy. :)

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2010-12-31....

Ilang minuto na lang at matatapos na ang taon. Iba’t ibang klase ng tunog at ingay na ang maririnig mong nanggagaling sa labas - ang iba’t-ibang ritmo ng mga paputok na parang machine gun, ang mga sintonadong boses ng kapitbahay na halos maputol ang litid maabot lang ang tonong hindi para sa kanya, ang mga kakaibang tunog na ginagawa ng keyboard sa kabilang bahay, ang naka-ritmong tunog ng drums sa kabila pa, at iba pa. Sa sobrang dami, sa sobrang lakas, halos hindi ko na rin marining ang sarili kong nagmumuni-muni. Siguro ay mabuti na rin ito para hindi ko na rin marinig ang patuloy na binubulong ng aking isipan - na pagkatapos ng matagal na panahon, hindi kita kasamang sasalubong sa bagong taon.

HongKong and Macau

Last January I had my first trip outside the country - or my first trip for the year - Hong Kong!

The Hong Kong trip was planned long ago - tickets were booked waaay in advance - you know it - seat sales. The date was set, but it took as a while to book a hotel. We wanted to make sure that even if we won't be staying for more than 10 hours a day in the hotel it would be a very comfortable stay, but at a reasonable price. Once the hotel was booked and the itinerary created, we just had to wait for the appointed date and time.

Truth be told, there were some apprehensions as the days went by. One of the reasons was that people were telling us to be very careful - apparently there have been a lot of people who experienced rudeness with the locals. Googling about it doesn't help either. But, we still decided to push through with it - we'll just bite back if needed. :P

Our itinerary consisted of visiting theme mostly theme parks - there were a couple of changes in the itinerary as we went along depending on the volume of people in certain areas, but overall we were able to get to most of the original ones. :)

I won't go into much detail of what happened during our trip, but I've put in a summary of what transpired during the day. I've also posted the pictures in the Facebook profile and have set them to public. I've included the links below for your to see HongKong through my eyes (or in this case, through my camera. :P)